Today I started a new... well, let's just say adventure. And what an adventure. For how long I'm not quite sure yet, but one thing I know for sure and that is that I have to be very strong, psychologically speaking. Maybe It will be important for my future. At least it will a big experience, since I never expected or thought about it. And today it was just the beggining...
sexta-feira, 29 de novembro de 2013
quinta-feira, 28 de novembro de 2013
I was reading a magazine - Máxima - and there was an interview to a writer and while I was reading what her book was about it felt like I reading about myself in many ways. It was awkward but refreshing to know that somebody, even without knowing me can know all that about my person. It was interesting. So, now I really want to have the book as a present - Christmas or Birthday - or I'm sure I will give it to myself.
quarta-feira, 27 de novembro de 2013
terça-feira, 26 de novembro de 2013
12 anos depois. Hoje voltei a entrar no ginásio onde tantas vezes treinei voleibol durante a escola secundária. E fui treinar como antes. Professor diferente. Pessoas diferentes. Até o ginásio está diferente. E eu, claro. Mas a sensação foi a mesma. A diversão não mudou. As dores nas mãos, nos dedos e nos pulsos. E o tempo parecia voltar atrás. Já não tenho a prática, aquela que se pensa que nunca se perde. O conhecimento, esse sim estava lá. Foi um momento a repetir. Nem eu sabia a falta que me fazia...
domingo, 24 de novembro de 2013
"I love dreaming. And I dream a lot. It can be while I'm sleeping or even awake. For hours. I think that's why I can, sometimes, see the future. It's not in detail, but with enough details to understand the picture. Other times I just dream. I just go into my little private world where everything is the way I imagine and happiness is everywhere. When that happens it is a sign that it's only a dream. In real Life not all days can be full of joy, But we can try to manage it the best way possible. And today is Sunday. The perfect day to be a dreamer."
quarta-feira, 20 de novembro de 2013
Yesterday, talking with a friend I heard her reason why people start to Forget things. And it has nothing to do with aging. Well, at least in a certain way.
Since I know her, she has been travelling a lot because of her job and at the same time she has a lot of unforgettable moments and adventures. So, she tells me that some times people talk to her about things that she can't remember about and some of them hadn't been that long ago. Usually people get a bit upset about it and maybe they even think that those moments weren't that important to her as were to them but the truth, according to her, is that she has lived a lot of different experiences, really great, and she can't keep all the memories of her life inside her head, so every time she experiences something new and exciting, occurs a change in her brain which is the replace of some old memory by the new one. Her theory also says that at some point, she can have a change in her view of things and by that she means that priorities and values can evolve and then it will happens again - the replacement in her memories - and old memories come back and replace new ones. And that's because she is living her life to the most, not only surviving the day.
I like this theory. Now, everytime someone tell me I'm getting old because I forgot things, I'll just reply that I'm living the Life! After all, as long as we know, we only have one that we can remember.
segunda-feira, 18 de novembro de 2013
domingo, 17 de novembro de 2013
sábado, 16 de novembro de 2013
sexta-feira, 15 de novembro de 2013
Today was suppose to be the day that could have made a diference, but a few days ago I had to make a decision. I decided to give up on it and at the time it seemed the best way to not make a mistake... I was all day thinking:"Now I would be starting/ If I was there I was doing this or that..."...
In the end I know it was the best choice, but the fact is that I don't like to give up or quit on anything or anyone. Usually I believe I need to try again or more. Not this time.
The good thing is that tomorrow I won't remember this and I will just stick to the other plans in my list. That's life and we can't change it or go back. Have a great weekend!!
P.S. The croissant was really good! Not having any guilty feelings about that!
I'm happy because I have been quite strong the past few weeks concerning to eating sweets and, specially, chocolate, but today is Friday and I woke up desiring a good hot croissant with chocolate. After giving a "lot" of thinking about it I decided to do it and so today, at tea time, I'll be in the "Croissantaria 29". Just like in Heaven...
quinta-feira, 14 de novembro de 2013
... or 112, as we say here. Tonight was the night that that call was made. Not that I think it's going to change anything. Unfortunately... After everything I keep thinking if I did the right thing. Or made it worst. He's trouble. The dangerous kind. And threats were said. Who knows how truthful they can be? I just wanted that this event would put a stop on this endless circle, but I don't really believe..."
terça-feira, 12 de novembro de 2013
While some ask why I hang out with others that seem pretty loony, I acknowledge that the reason is quite simple: they make me smile with their weird stories, mad thoughts and incredible dreams. If we don't take everything they say for real, that can be a great therapy, just seeing through the mirror of our complex Life and turn it simple. Yes, they might be crazy, but aren't we all?
segunda-feira, 11 de novembro de 2013
... we need to give up on something or someone. And that it's not easy. No one can say we're being weak or just not fighting hard enough. It's Life. We give up in a moment to be able to move forward and start a new path, a new purpose, a new friendship...
And today I am giving up on something. Not because I want, but because I see the reality of that and it's visible that that is not worthing the work.
But it's still hard...
domingo, 10 de novembro de 2013
sábado, 9 de novembro de 2013
"You know it's a lie. Like the others over the years. And you also know it will be like this over and over again. And you can't do a thing.
Another bruise. Another swollen eye. The same sad eyes that you are so used to see and can't do nothing to change it.
And it hurts. The knowledge that this life could be so diferente. This Life that goes so fast and it's a shame some people choose to live it unhappy, being affraid of making another move, not the same that took her to this place today.
The year is almost in the end and nothing will really change..."
quinta-feira, 7 de novembro de 2013
Yesterday it was the end of the first stage. I still feel like a zombie in need of sleep and rest but happy because it was a great experience. It was fun and I got to know new people and new things which is always a plus.
Now it's time for making choices and decide what will be next. Knowing that I have to stay at least one more month here, I have to choose wisely. More news to come.
sábado, 2 de novembro de 2013
Another week is gone and the weekend is at its end already.
This week was intense like the past one, but by some different reasons. Again there were too much work and too little time to embrace all in the proper way and to be able to understand everything, and even, I had a blast!
I could tell all about it but I won't, just because it doesn't feel that interesting for others that aren't the characters of the stories, so you would be just annoyed but it.
But... there was something that made this week even better - like people say what comes in the end usually is the best!
I met a friend who I have known for my entire life or almost. It's someone I really like, we used to be very closed, but then we did different choices through Life and that made us grown apart these last few years. And yesterday it was like we were never that far away. The funny thing is that this friend seems to know me better than most of the ones who have been close to me and that feels good.
I ended up going to a class of yoga with my friend and I have to say it was the perfect ending for the day - and the week, by the way - because I was so relaxed when I get home that I just fell a sleep till this morning. It had been ages since I had such a good night of sleep!
I did yoga a few years ago, but it never seemed the thing for me, too slow and not feeling I was spending that much energy. Now, I think I will do it every night when I'm tired or just in need to relax.